Blogging From Work.

Bad. All Bad!

But I don't care much for following the rules sometimes...it's not like work is dying without me anyway! So uhm yeah. Here are my thoughts as of this afternoon:

Girl Scouts Thin Mint cookies are like a drug. I cannot stop snacking on them ever since my supervisor gave me a whole box. I think I'm going to turn into a thin mint and have little thin mint babies. Wouldn't that be cute? (and delicious!).

No, I am not calling myself a cannibal...I'm only saying if the babies were cookies.

Anyway- I've been on a very tight rope lately as in I don't know what's going on with me and my emotions. But frankly I've been pretty bitchy this week. Just heavily annoyed and frustrated at the silliest things (such as this snow). Yesterday was a snow day and I stayed in the house ALL day long (except for my supermarket run for windex & ice cream) but I was extremely bored and lonely and the only thing I found entertaining was watching American Pie for the first time in like....forever. Blah..

I feel like I've reached this creativity wall that has just blocked me from all things fun. My mind has been all over the place and I just need February to hurry up and leave. I can tell you in advance that when March arrives, I'm going to be back to my old self. Right now? I'm like in this weird transition phase thanks to school. It usually takes me a few weeks to adjust!

I'm also producing 5 projects outside of school and editing my thesis film on top of that. So you can imagine how I'm trying to manage my focus once you throw in 2 internships and 5 classes. It's a little unbalancing to say the least! But like I said, just give me a few weeks and I'll find my rhythm once again. There's nothing I can't do! (or well...thats my mentality anyway).

USC decisions are coming within the next week...enough said. Do I really need graduate school? No...but would it help me? Absolutely. Imagine...to be finished with your entire education at the ripe age of 24. The things I could do would be limitless! :)

With all of this said, I think I'll try and focus back on work now. My attention span lately has been that of a newborn baby.

Wish me luck!

-Deniese RaVae Davis

Observations.

Let's start over.

Hi- my name is Deniese Davis and I'm 21 years old living a blessed life of randomness. I hate seafood, love felt-tip pens and I am addicted to chapstick. Are we with me so far? Good.

My life has been somewhat strategically planned out. That may sound a little weird but as much as I roll with the punches, I usually have already thought about actions and decisions in advance. It's just the way I think and I can't help it. I hate being caught off-guard and find myself always planning ahead in life from what clothes to wear the next day to where I'll be in six months. Some may say that's no way to live but to be honest- I live a very carefree and happy life.

Ok, so enough. I think your going to pick up how I think anyway from reading my blogs. I'm me and thats all I know how to be.

For the first time in five years I am 100% absolutely and completely single. I came to a random conclusion that I was unhappy with where my love life has ended up recently...I was talking to someone amazing but yet he was in another state. Been there, done that...me and long distance relationships just don't get along! So anywho- I realized that I magically had jumped ship again. I don't know how or why but I seem to just date people back to back without a break. You would think I have a list somewhere with people just waiting for me to give them a chance...

So I cut the in-another-state guy loose. I declared that I am going to remain single and unattached at least until I get my life together for the big things to come in the next six months. Does this mean I'm stiff arming anybody who dares to come near me? No. It just means I'm not looking for a relationship nor do I want to get remotely emotionally attached to someone. Not right now. I have too many great things going on and I think it's the best time to focus on me and only me. It's amazing to think that I've never been able to do that in the four years that I've been in college...but its refreshing to know that these last six months will be different.

I am a spiritual woman who believes in freedom and independence but yet never have truly implemented these terms in my personal life when it comes to relationships. I think it's time I start... :)

-Deniese RaVae Davis